Monday, March 17, 2014

Blessed Beyond Measure

I am...
Blessed beyond measure
Laughter and light
Everything I was intended to be
Daughter of GOD

Empathetic but not an idiot
Young enough to know better
Old enough to get away with it
Naturally creative
Dancer in the rain

Made to survive
Evolving into my own
Amazon warrior
Someone to be respected
Entirely self-sufficient

~ Cindi

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Luck of the Irish ...

We are wearing our green today...
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Saturday, March 15, 2014

Friday, March 14, 2014

5 minutes: crowd


words crowd the tiny screen of my cell phone as i push them up and down to see what has escaped. i blog in defiance of what is happening in my life right now because this is "my crowd" where i feel welcoming hugs and comforting words.

thoughts crowd my mind, keeping me awake at night. worries, fears, hurts, and negativity. i push them out. refusing to belong to that crowd, and reach for His words. His "crowd."

i let myself escape into the safety and comfort of Him.


~ Cindi

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Wednesday, March 12, 2014

blue ...

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i saw a bluebird this morning when i got to work
i watched it for so long, i was almost late logging into my computer

i don't remember ever seeing a bluebird here before
and i've lived here for a very long time

i've seen robins and orioles and kingfishers and eagles
i've seen hawks and mockingbirds and cardinals and blue jays

but i don't think i have ever seen a bluebird

it appeared on a "blue" day for me
so perhaps it was a sign
they say bluebirds bring happiness
so maybe there is some on the way for me
i hope

i've been struggling to wrap my mind around everything that has happened in the past two weeks
it is so hard to even comprehend that it has only been two weeks

of course
things were apparently happening long before that
ignorance truly was bliss

i feel as if i have woken up on some foreign planet
or in a parallel universe where there are no such things
as happily ever afters

the more i learn about the man i married
the less i know about my life as it was

it was a beautiful bluebird i saw this morning
and i hope i see it again tomorrow

morning coffee ...

Join us for a cup...
Good Morning,

I don't know what you've been facing lately, but I know that it is the encouraging words that I have been reading and hearing the past week that have kept my heart from sinking when things have begun to turn upside down in my life.  

Words have come from unexpected sources that confirm that this path that God has put me on is exactly where I'm supposed to be right now.

Scriptures.  Casual comments in emails.  Quotes read in magazines.  A status on facebook.  A pin on Pinterest.  A blog post that reaches out to my heart and just says ... yes, you are right where God wants you to be.  Even when things have been the most painful, when the truth that He is revealing to me cuts me to the core ... I know that He is still with me and that there is a plan for all of this.

I may not see the road ahead of me just yet because I am still blinded by the trees, but I know that with His master GPS ... the road is being made clear, the path will be known, and the destination will be glorious.

The other truth and encouragement that has carried me along this road has been the knowledge that I am not alone.  Not just that God will never leave me or forsake me, but the truth that there are others ... like you ... who have walked this path before me and survived.  There will be those who follow in my steps also one day and realize that they too will survive.  Whatever the road, whatever the journey ... we are not alone in our walk and whether we reach out to hold someone's hand along the way, or we trudge along on our own ... we are not alone.

Take my hand ....

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

rain ....

rain ... tap tapping on the skylight
soothing my mind as i review
forms that will end my marriage

rain ... falling like tears
blink blink blink
wipe the tears away

rain ... showering me clean
cleansing my heart
refreshing my spirit

rain ... watering the seeds of hope
new growth and fresh starts
washing away the past

rain ... tap tapping on the skylight
soothing my mind as i drift to sleep
curled between the dog and cat

Monday, March 10, 2014

taking steps ...

things still seem so surreal
as if this is some
kind of drawn out,
insane and twisted
nightmare.  i try to
grasp at reality and it

slips between my fingers.
truth does that sometimes.
eventually this will all be
past, and i will 
sleep soundly once again.

Saturday, March 8, 2014

this is what I believe ...

... when your life is about to change ... when God is about to bless you abundantly ...

You need to hold on tight because Satan is going to throw everything he has at you.

You will find out things that will shatter everything you once thought was true in your life.
You will feel the blood drain from your upper body
and be left speechless.
You will be rocked, knocked down, 
and left wondering how you couldn't have seen it before then.

But the truth is that Satan didn't want you to see it because that wasn't part of his plan.
He wanted you to be in the dark
so that he could continue to destroy everything you once thought was real.

God reveals the truth.
Not to hurt you,
but to save you.
Because if you had continued to live blind
to what was going on...
you could never see what was about to come into your life.

God has some amazing things just around the corner.
A life so bright ... I'm gonna need shades.

This is what I believe.

Friday, March 7, 2014

5 minutes: willing ...


she was willing to love him
she was willing to help him
she was willing to share her life with him


she wasn't willing to lose herself
she wasn't willing to take part in the things that destroyed them
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she wasn't willing to continue to enable him


she was willing to love him
she was willing to pray for him
she was willing to let him go


He was willing to take the cross for them
He was willing to die for them
He was willing to love them
He was willing to forgive them

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“In prayer there is a connection between what God does and what you do. You can’t get forgiveness from God, for instance, without also forgiving others. If you refuse to do your part, you cut yourself off from God’s part."
~ Matthew 6:14-15 MSG ~

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

what if ...

... you were kind to yourself today?  A powerful message by Lisa-Jo Baker, and one that I needed first thing this morning.

What if ... love was all it took to heal people?  Cure them?  Free them?  Help them?  What if we tried anyway?  What would it hurt?  Even if from a distance ... isn't it better to just love?

"There are three things that remain—faith, hope, and love—
and the greatest of these
is love."
~ 1 Corinthians 13:13 TLB ~

small things ...

Join us for a cup?
Hello Sunshine,

It has been a trying week, hasn't it?  I know I've struggled.  Layoffs at work ... dead car battery in a week when the paycheck needed to stretch farther than it did ... anxiety ... frustration ... choices ... decisions ... heartbreak.  Aching heartbreak and loss.

But it is the small things that make the biggest difference in our days.  Friends who come through to help when you call.  Amazing sunrises.  Astounding sunsets.  Spring flowers rebelling against the latest cold snap.  Warm snuggles under the covers with my cat.  The comfort of my dog leaning up against my legs.  The words that tell us of truth ... and of love.

"Do not withhold your mercy from me, Lord;
may your love and faithfulness always protect me.
For troubles without number surround me;
my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see.
They are more than the hairs of my head,
and my heart fails within me."
~ Psalm 40:11-12 NIV ~

"Love and Truth meet in the street,
Right Living and Whole Living embrace and kiss!
Truth sprouts green from the ground,
Right Living pours down from the skies!
Oh yes! God gives Goodness and Beauty;
our land responds with Bounty and Blessing.
Right Living strides out before him,
and clears a path for his passage."
~ Psalm 85:10-13 MSG ~

"Guilt is banished through love and truth;
Fear-of-God deflects evil.
When God approves of your life,
even your enemies will end up shaking your hand."
~ Proverbs 16:6-7 MSG ~

"Companions as we are in this work with you, we beg you, 
please don’t squander one bit of this marvelous life God has given us. God reminds us,
'I heard your call in the nick of time;
The day you needed me, I was there to help.'
Well, now is the right time to listen, the day to be helped. Don’t put it off; don’t frustrate God’s work by showing up late, throwing a question mark over everything we’re doing. Our work as God’s servants gets validated—or not—in the details. People are watching us as we stay at our post, alertly, unswervingly . . . in hard times, tough times, bad times; when we’re beaten up, jailed, and mobbed; working hard, working late, working without eating; with pure heart, clear head, steady hand; in gentleness, holiness, and honest love; when we’re telling the truth, and when God’s showing his power; when we’re doing our best setting things right; when we’re praised, and when we’re blamed; slandered, and honored; true to our word, though distrusted; ignored by the world, but recognized by God; terrifically alive, though rumored to be dead; beaten within an inch of our lives, but refusing to die; immersed in tears, yet always filled with deep joy; living on handouts, yet enriching many; having nothing, having it all."
~ 2 Corinthians 6:1-10 MSG ~

Monday, March 3, 2014

breathing ...

I've been barely breathing now for about four days.
Overwhelmed with a plate full of fear and worries.

Yesterday's messages from churches helped.
But it's Monday ... and Mondays can usually bring their own stress.

This Monday, however, brought some relief.

I escaped the short list for the May 2nd layoffs at work.
So am able to breath and know that at least ...

I have room on my plate for dessert.

Sunday, March 2, 2014

all is well ...

... with my soul.
All is well.

I listened to an incredible message this afternoon from Joel Osteen titled "All is Well."  I would highly recommend listening to it, no matter what your circumstances or beliefs, it is a powerful and positive message about changing our attitudes about the challenges and trials that we face.

"... This promise is good because of Who God is. He makes the dead live again. 
He speaks, and something is made out of nothing."
~ Romans 4:17 NLV ~

It came after another message this morning at Christ Church.
Which while directed to parents and children, from Ephesians 6:1-4 and Deuteronomy 11:18-21, I could apply to my own life ... and to just how to act towards anyone in our lives.

Spiritually nourish each other.
Respect and honor each other.
Don't provoke others to anger.
Use self discipline.
Submit to one another with love.

It was a good day ... and that ... was a good thing.

blindsided ...

being without peripheral vision on one side, i
laugh about catching people on my blind side, but
i'm the one who isn't laughing
now. sometimes life throws you a curve.
drops the other shoe.
slides the rug right out from under you.
in times when you think you know where you stand
darkness descends and you are left wondering what is real.
even those things you once felt were safe ... aren't anymore.
don't let go of the light within you.  hang on.  hang on.

Saturday, March 1, 2014


best intentions never
robbed anyone of their heart
opposites attracted
kept the fire hot
except for
now when all has been