Made to survive
Monday, March 17, 2014
Saturday, March 15, 2014
Friday, March 14, 2014
words crowd the tiny screen of my cell phone as i push them up and down to see what has escaped. i blog in defiance of what is happening in my life right now because this is "my crowd" where i feel welcoming hugs and comforting words.
thoughts crowd my mind, keeping me awake at night. worries, fears, hurts, and negativity. i push them out. refusing to belong to that crowd, and reach for His words. His "crowd."
i let myself escape into the safety and comfort of Him.
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
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i watched it for so long, i was almost late logging into my computer
i don't remember ever seeing a bluebird here before
and i've lived here for a very long time
i've seen robins and orioles and kingfishers and eagles
i've seen hawks and mockingbirds and cardinals and blue jays
but i don't think i have ever seen a bluebird
it appeared on a "blue" day for me
so perhaps it was a sign
they say bluebirds bring happiness
so maybe there is some on the way for me
i've been struggling to wrap my mind around everything that has happened in the past two weeks
it is so hard to even comprehend that it has only been two weeks
things were apparently happening long before that
ignorance truly was bliss
i feel as if i have woken up on some foreign planet
or in a parallel universe where there are no such things
as happily ever afters
the more i learn about the man i married
the less i know about my life as it was
it was a beautiful bluebird i saw this morning
and i hope i see it again tomorrow
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I don't know what you've been facing lately, but I know that it is the encouraging words that I have been reading and hearing the past week that have kept my heart from sinking when things have begun to turn upside down in my life.
Words have come from unexpected sources that confirm that this path that God has put me on is exactly where I'm supposed to be right now.
Scriptures. Casual comments in emails. Quotes read in magazines. A status on facebook. A pin on Pinterest. A blog post that reaches out to my heart and just says ... yes, you are right where God wants you to be. Even when things have been the most painful, when the truth that He is revealing to me cuts me to the core ... I know that He is still with me and that there is a plan for all of this.
I may not see the road ahead of me just yet because I am still blinded by the trees, but I know that with His master GPS ... the road is being made clear, the path will be known, and the destination will be glorious.
The other truth and encouragement that has carried me along this road has been the knowledge that I am not alone. Not just that God will never leave me or forsake me, but the truth that there are others ... like you ... who have walked this path before me and survived. There will be those who follow in my steps also one day and realize that they too will survive. Whatever the road, whatever the journey ... we are not alone in our walk and whether we reach out to hold someone's hand along the way, or we trudge along on our own ... we are not alone.
Take my hand ....
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
soothing my mind as i review
forms that will end my marriage
rain ... falling like tears
blink blink blink
wipe the tears away
rain ... showering me clean
cleansing my heart
refreshing my spirit
rain ... watering the seeds of hope
new growth and fresh starts
washing away the past
rain ... tap tapping on the skylight
soothing my mind as i drift to sleep
curled between the dog and cat
Monday, March 10, 2014
Saturday, March 8, 2014
Friday, March 7, 2014
she was willing to love him
she was willing to help him
she was willing to share her life with him
she wasn't willing to lose herself
she wasn't willing to take part in the things that destroyed them
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she was willing to love him
she was willing to pray for him
she was willing to let him go
He was willing to take the cross for them
He was willing to die for them
He was willing to love them
He was willing to forgive them
Thursday, March 6, 2014
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
What if ... love was all it took to heal people? Cure them? Free them? Help them? What if we tried anyway? What would it hurt? Even if from a distance ... isn't it better to just love?
and the greatest of these
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It has been a trying week, hasn't it? I know I've struggled. Layoffs at work ... dead car battery in a week when the paycheck needed to stretch farther than it did ... anxiety ... frustration ... choices ... decisions ... heartbreak. Aching heartbreak and loss.
But it is the small things that make the biggest difference in our days. Friends who come through to help when you call. Amazing sunrises. Astounding sunsets. Spring flowers rebelling against the latest cold snap. Warm snuggles under the covers with my cat. The comfort of my dog leaning up against my legs. The words that tell us of truth ... and of love.
Monday, March 3, 2014
Overwhelmed with a plate full of fear and worries.
Yesterday's messages from churches helped.
But it's Monday ... and Mondays can usually bring their own stress.
This Monday, however, brought some relief.
I escaped the short list for the May 2nd layoffs at work.
So am able to breath and know that at least ...
I have room on my plate for dessert.
Sunday, March 2, 2014
All is well.
I listened to an incredible message this afternoon from Joel Osteen titled "All is Well." I would highly recommend listening to it, no matter what your circumstances or beliefs, it is a powerful and positive message about changing our attitudes about the challenges and trials that we face.
Which while directed to parents and children, from Ephesians 6:1-4 and Deuteronomy 11:18-21, I could apply to my own life ... and to just how to act towards anyone in our lives.
laugh about catching people on my blind side, but
i'm the one who isn't laughing
now. sometimes life throws you a curve.
drops the other shoe.
slides the rug right out from under you.
in times when you think you know where you stand
darkness descends and you are left wondering what is real.
even those things you once felt were safe ... aren't anymore.
don't let go of the light within you. hang on. hang on.