Sunday, April 27, 2014

fireflies ...

flickering along the shore
i hear children laughing and
running in
excitement as they chase
fireflies by the
light of the moon
i wish i was
eleven or
seven again

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

frogs ...

Lately I've had a hard time writing.
It has frustrated me a great deal.
I feel like I've lost something important.

I think it is because my writing tends to be a way to express my emotions.

I'm not sure which is more frustrating.
Not feeling emotions right now, or not being able to write.

I stopped on the way home from work to watch some egrets in flight over a nearby lake.
The sound of the frogs in the reeds was an unexpected bonus.

One day ...

I will have a house on a lake, where I can sit at night and listen to the frogs while counting fireflies and shooting stars as I sip tea and relax in my hammock chair.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

words ...

words run circles around in my head
waking me up and out of bed

memories run circles around in my mind
waking me up, my heart in a bind

hurt runs circles around in my heart
waking me up, an unpleasant start

i climb back in bed
the words out of my head

it is sleep i will find
memories gone from my mind

tomorrow will be a new start
for the healing of my heart

Friday, April 18, 2014

5 minutes: glue ...

What holds you together?
i felt like i had become unglued
pieces of my life falling apart
faster than i could hold it together

then i found the glue that would
seal the broken edges
the pieces that had become raw

His promise
His word
His truth

His hand
"Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand."
~ Psalm 73:23 NIV ~

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

hope ...

Pour a cup of hope today ...
In her blog post today, Holley Gerth talks about finding hope in unexpected places.

Her words reached out to me and gave me hope.  Especially when she talks about facing what we never wanted to face and then not only does our faith survive and thrive ... but we do too.

I'm there.  Facing things I never thought I would face.  Never wanted to face.  But I have stood firm, stood tall, and have stood the test.  I have held fast to my faith, my values, and my beliefs.  I have not been swayed in the darkness, by the darkness, and instead have clung to the light of hope.

You can too.

We are glad for our troubles also. 
We know that troubles help us learn not to give up. 
When we have learned not to give up, it shows we have stood the test. 
When we have stood the test, it gives us hope.
~ Romans 5:3-4 NLV ~

Friday, April 11, 2014

5 minutes: paint ...

join us...
he wanted to paint me a picture of what it was like to be him
he said i didn't understand what it was like
and he was right

i wanted to paint him a picture of what it was like to be me
i told him he didn't understand what it was like
and i was right

and now i paint a picture of a future without him
a choice that was his
and now is mine

i look at the colors of the rainbow
and wonder which one to choose
to paint the bright promises
that await me.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Wednesday coffee ...

Join us for a cup...

A big word sometimes when you are feeling very small.
Or very scared.


It isn't always in the brave act.  Sometimes it is in the things that we fear the most, but we know are the right things to do.  It is choosing to walk a narrow path ... and not the wide road that someone else chooses.  It is saying no ... when someone wants you to say yes.  It is making a hard decision ... one that rips your heart out and makes you feel as if you have thrown yourself on a grenade ... and then standing up and standing strong in the decision no matter how much it hurts.


It is sometimes loving yourself more ... and slowing learning to stop loving someone who has hurt and betrayed you.  It is letting go ... and holding on to the hand of God as He leads you beside the still waters and restores your soul.

"The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. 
He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams. 
He renews my strength. 
He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. 
Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. 
Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me. 
You prepare a feast for me in the presence of my enemies. 
You honor me by anointing my head with oil. 
My cup overflows with blessings. 
Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, 
and I will live in the house of the Lord forever." 
~ Psalm 23:1-6 NLT ~

Sunday, April 6, 2014

Sunday ...

I was gone for a while.

Things in my life were too insane painful difficult complicated to even think about, let alone write about.

So I'm coming back ... perhaps with a vengeance ... and sharing some sunsets taken the last week of March as a metaphor for the sun going down on this time in my life.  I hope you enjoy them as much as I did in that brief moment of time when I was seeing them.